You Chose Me Chapter 8 [Monstar fanfic]
8.D-day
The weeks had passed like a quick breeze and it had become impossible for Nana to believe that she was a bride today. It was her wedding day and she was freaking out as it seemed nothing more than a dream. She imagined that she would eventually marry a guy that she loved, which was true but they have been dating for less than a month and they were just eighteen for heaven’s sake.
She was sailing between the ship of happiness and nervousness. Being a wife would mean a big deal, that she realized when the two families had a official meeting with the exchange of gifts and rituals. Even until then, the thought did not occur to her that she would now be living with Sunwoo’s family until they could manage themselves, which was still a few years away. Her feet turned cold at the spot and she began having second thoughts. Initially, she kept this all to herself but she couldn’t take it anymore and she spilled her guts out to her fiance. He tried reassuring her that it would all be fine and that he would always be with her at all costs.
His reassurance had very little effect, but she felt better after letting him know.It had been almost three days since she had seen him in person, though they spoke on the phone constantly . But it was difficult to hold a long conversation because of all the interruptions, either her parents wanted her to try something or his parents had needed him to go somewhere. Most of her time was engaged in bridal beauty treatments, which did little to relax her but apparently did wonders on her glow. Her mother’s words, not hers. Sharing all her events of the day on the phone with Sunwoo always earned her chuckle on the other side.
He asked her random questions about what colors she liked, what sort of bed sheets she used , whether she liked stuffed animals etc. , which she found weird until he explained that his mother was decorating the room for her and wanted their opinion. Nana’s breath caught in her throat for a while at the thought of sharing a room with him. Her silence was understood by him and he reassured her that it was her room that his mom was preparing. He would be living in his room as always. She breathe a sigh of relief because she was not at all ready for that level in their relationship as to share a room with him.
“Chill down Nana. My mom’s busy preparing your room. That were her questions, so if it felt weird to you, I felt more weird asking them. ”
“Ah! Yeah…I understand.”
“What were you thinking?”
“Nothing at all.”
“You freaked out didn’t you?”
“No. I did not…there was nothing to freak out about.”
“You will have your own room. Mine is a little away from yours. You really have a dirty mind Kim Nana.”
“Nonsense. I thought nothing of that sort. It’s you who made it sound all wrong. I’m just glad that you will be away and not annoy me.”
“Oh really. I’m more glad because I won’t be surrounded by magazine cuttings, mannequins and clothing. I will be happy to be in my own sanctuary.”
“Say’s the one who has been spending all his time studying in my studio apartment.”
“I only did that because that was the only time we had to spend together. I dare you to deny that you did not like having me there.”
“No, I did not. You are very distracting so, it’s hard to concentrate on my work.”
“I am distracting to you? I did not know that I had that sort of effect on you.”
“Stop twisting my words, Jung Sunwoo.”
“Okay fine. But if you ever really feel like it. You can always join me in my room.”
“I’m hanging up.”
“No don’t. See now you are twisting my words. I mean when I’m studying , you can be in my room like I do in your studio.”
“Hmm….whatever you say. I really need to keep the phone now. I’m tired and need to rest for tomorrow.”
“Okay. See you tomorrow at our wedding.” He said stressing on the our part.
She realized that he was getting all the more silly and flirtatious with her. That’s how their conversation had gone last night before she lay awake for hours on her bed for finally falling asleep. She kept having frightening thoughts and even thought of running away for a moment from her own wedding, but her thoughts laid to rest as she received a message from him.
She felt even better at his message wishing a good morning as usual because for her it seemed that he cared enough to calm her fears down. She had woken fairly early because they had a lot to prepare before they reached the wedding hall. She had to get her hair & makeup done and change into her wedding down before she reached her wedding venue. The only thing that she liked amongst all the wedding preparations and chaos was her gown. She was in love with it, and couldn’t wait for Sunwoo to see her in it. She wondered in anticipation of what Sunwoo’s reaction would be, whether he would like it or not because even she thought the dress looked beautiful on her.
Her parents and she reached the wedding hall to find that Sunwoo’s family had already reached and were greeting some of the early guests. They had been waiting on her and escorted her to the waiting room. Her mother was there with her all the while, but left when Eunha and Seyi joined her. Soon enough, even his parents and grandmother had come to see the bride and gushed over how beautiful she looked making her feel embarrassed.
“Nana, you look so beautiful today.” Eunha and Seyi gushed over the bride and her lovely gown.
“Has Sunwoo seen you yet in this dress?”
“Not really.”
“Be ready Nana, he won’t be able to take his eyes off you.”
“Ahem..okay.” Was all she could say in response in embarrassment.
“Nana, you love Sunwoo right?” Seyi suddenly questioned her and got the bride flustered who could only nod in reply.
“What about Sunwoo? Does he feel the same?”
“I think so…”
“He definitely does or you two would not have come this far.” Eunha chimed in.
The two girls smiled at each other and looked back at Nana who just stared back in confusion. Before the girls could explain,there was a knock on the door and Eunha opened the door to let the visitors in. Her fellow male band mates had entered to greet the bride and were awestruck looking at the tough girl who looked like a beautiful swan in her wedding gown.
“You look like a total different person, tough girl. Where’s the Kim Nana we know?” Seolchan tried to joke to cover his awestruck expression, causing everyone in the room to laugh.
“He means, you look beautiful Nana.” Kyudong complimented her with DoNam nodding his head in agreement. The air between the two teens still seemed tense despite which Nana thanked him.
Soon they heard another knock on the door with her Father entering to inform that the wedding ceremony was going to begin soon. Her friends left the room leaving her alone with her father. He looked the same as always, donned in his black suit with a poker face which his daughter most likely inherited from him. They seemed awkward at the moment but she could feel that her father had many things to say to her.
“Are there many people out there?” She questioned in the midst.
“In your terms, yes there are. But compared to other weddings this is quite a low key affair.” He replied to her with a smile.
“Okay.” She replied with an edge of nervousness in her voice.
“Nana” Her father called out to her as she turned her face towards him in response.
“I know I have not been a good father to you. You had to go through a lot of hurdles because of me and your mother. Though we never really showed it, I want you to know that we really really love you. You are our only precious daughter.”
Nana felt the tears well up in her eyes and she bit bit on her lip to stop the tears from forming. Her father kept looking ahead of him without turning to face his daughter.
“To be honest, I really don’t want to give you away just yet. You are so young. But if that’s what you want from me, then I will give it to you. But you show know that if that if you ever want to come back or need any help, we will be there.No questions asked.”
Nana could already feel the tears running down past her cheeks and quickly turned in search of a tissue with her head ducked down. As she tried to peer through the blurriness of eyes, she saw a hand giving out a tissue. She quickly grabbed it wiping her tears only to come face to face with the smiling face of her father. Nana could never recall of her father smiling like that, since his line of profession required him to be rough and void of expression.
“Nana, if you still want to runaway. I already have my men stationed outside. We can still sneak away in the back and no one will know.” He offered with a teasing smile and his daughter could only stifle her laugh though her tears.
Soon, the father daughter were requested to get prepared for their entry as the ceremony were going to begin soon. They could hear the announcements through the hall doors and soon, it was the cue for the bride to enter.
For the brief second, Nana thought of suddenly taking up on her father’s previous offer seriously, but she soon felt a tug of her arm as her father held her hand and slowly place it on his arm. She inhaled a sharp breath and exhaled letting her self calm down. She nodded in approval and the door opened for them as the music started playing.
They matched their steps evenly down the aisle as the attention of all the people present in the room turned to the bride. Nana looked from the corner of her eye at the guests gathered, she could only recognize a few known faces only. She finally looked ahead to see her groom dressed sleekly in his black and white tuxedo who was looking back as her and waiting for her. He looked much more handsome than she had ever seen him before causing her to blushed. His hair was neatly done and he flashed a charming smile over his face. Sunwoo bowed to her father and her father took her hand and gently placed it in Sunwoo’s palm.
The bride and groom turned towards the altar. Soon, the officiator began reading their vows and and the couple said their ‘I do’s.’ Sunwoo and Nana soon exchanged their wedding rings and were officially declared as married followed by a round of applause and cheers through the room. For the couple, the moments flashed in a blur as they just went through the motions without thinking about it in their nervous bout.
The newly married couple now bowed in front of both the bride and groom’s parents and elders seeking their blessing for a blissful married life ahead. The guests soon approached the couple congratulating and offering their bests wishes and taking pictures with them. Sunwoo noticed Nana shifting on her feet and he turned to wards her in concern.
“Is something wrong Nana?”
“Its nothing. My feet are hurting because of the heels.”
“Do you want to change them now?” He asked in concern.
“No. I can’t do that know.” She said quickly.
“Then?” He asked her in question.
“No. I can manage. It’s not that bad. I can wait till everything is over.”
“Don’t worry it till be over soon.”
She saw Sunwoo turned towards Eunha and Seyi murmuring something amongst themselves. She could only tilt her head on his peculiar behavior.
She were soon photographed with only their family and also another one with their friends. The remaining pictures taken were only of the newly wed couple and they were glad when it was all over.
Nana and Sunwoo then left to change from their wedding attire before leaving the hall. As Nana reached the dressing room, Eunha and Seyi handed her a bag. She opened it to find a pair of flat shoes in them.
“Whats this for?” She asked confused.
“Sunwoo asked us if we could arrange a pair of flats for you since your feet were hurting in the high heels you are wearing. This was the only one we could arrange in such short notice.”
Nana smiled as her new husband’s small gesture. Husband, it sounded weird and foreign to her. She giggled to herself but her mother soon rushed her to change.
“Your husband is already taking care of you.” Her mother teased her as she helped Nana out of her gown and left the room for Nana to change her clothes leaving her an attire that was arranged for her.
Nana changed from her white down to a more formal attire which her mother had prepared specially for her to wear at her in-laws.It was blue clean cut dress that accentuated her figure but being enough modest with remaining accessories. It was different from the clothes her mother normally wore because the said woman had a strong and bold fashion sense. Nana sat down for a moment allowing her to take in the fact that she was now a married woman. She turned her wedding ring on her finger and smiled to herself.
Nana left her room to find Sunwoo waiting for her now changed into more comfortable attire. He smiled at her and looked at her feet now dressed in flats.
“Feel better now?”
“Yes I do. Thanks.”
“C’mon, lets go. Our families are probably waiting for us.”
He grabbed her hand in his and led her out of the venue to find their parents talking to each other. Nana noted that her bags were being loaded into Sunwoo’s families care and her mother was making sure they got all of it.
Upon seeing the couple, the parents offered them smiles but it seemed different. Sunwoo’s family sported bright smiles at the thought of taking their new daughter-in-law home. Whereas her parents had sad smiles on their faces about sending their precious daughter away. It finally dawned on her that she would not be going home to her parents but to her new husband and his family.
Nana was quiet and just gave a small replies through the time when she bid farewell to her parents.. She could hear Sunwoo and his family reassuring her parents that they will take good care of her. She soon got into car with Sunwoo who guided her in and bid farewell.The image for their figure growing smaller and further away made her depressed
Noting her quiet and sad demeanor Sunwoo tugged on her arm.
“Whats wrong?”
“Nothing.”
“Tell me what’s going on in your mind?”
“Nothing much.”
“Still tell me.”
“Nothing really to worry about. It’s just dawned to me that I will never be going home anymore, but will now be going to you home and family.”
“Nana, its not the olden times anymore. You can go to your parents home whenever you want. See them whenever you want.”
“I know that. But it still feels different to me. Rather than leaving with my parents. I’m leaving with yours. Its just foreign and strange for some reason. Though I was hardly ever in my home and always spending time at the studio, I think I will miss my room.”
“I understand that you will.But we won’t be living in my parents home for too long. ”
Nana looked at him confused and surprised at his sudden news. Realizing that she was waiting for an explanation, Sunwoo continued speaking.
“We will move out from there once we graduate from school. Though it is still a year away, it will be better for us that we start living independently from our parents. I had told my family that we would live away immediately, but they insisted that we were too young and we were still in school. We still needed to be take care of and just concentrate on our studies for the final year. ”
Nana was shocked at Sunwoo’s confession. He never really seemed the type who would want to live apart from his family so soon.
“Now that I think, it was too rash of me to think that we could live alone.” He told her but it seemed that more than Nana he was telling himself that.
Of course, it was rash. The thought of living under the same roof with him without anybody around bought blood rushing to her cheeks and neck. The mere though seemed scandalous enough to curl her toes and she looked him ridiculously. As if he understood the thoughts swarming her head, he let out chuckle and gave her a small smile.
“Nana” He called out to her in a soft but serious tone.
“Hmm?” She hummed.
“Its not that you will miss your home, rather it is that you will miss you parents.”
“Maybe.” Nana smiled to her self sadly at the though of her parents as watched the view outside the window of the car. She felt Sunwoo place his hand on hers and intertwine their fingers together as he watched the view outside his side of the window.
They soon reached his home and Nana got of the car looking at her new home she would be living in for a while. Her new family welcomed her with open arms and tried to make her feel as much comfortable as possible. Her new husband was being extra attentive to her as he noted how depressed she look in the car. Soon, Nana began to get comfortable as she spoke to them and dinner seemed to go much better than the last time she had been there fretting about the lies that they had made up.
Nana felt most comfortable with Sunwoo’s grandmother who seemed to be sincere with her in her interactions. Though his mother also was sweet to her, she could see that she was trying very hard to make her feel as comfortable as possible. She was still grateful to her. On the other hand, Sunwoo’s father seemed more quieter and distant though he seemed amiable enough to share small conversations with. Despite everything, Nana still felt out of place amongst the people who were new to her. She had always been a loner and never really been close to anyone for a long time. Apart from Sunwoo or ColorBar members, she hardly spoke to anyone. Though she had become more open towards others now, she realized that she had a long way to go. She called her parents a little past dinner to let them know she was doing well , knowing that they would be anxiously waiting for her call.
Later in the night Sunwoo and his mother guided her to her room. His mother joyously described all the things she had prepared for her daughter-in-law making Nana smile at her cuteness. Sunwoo was right, his mother was a lot different from him, she seemed more of a joyous and expressive person.
“Thank you for putting so much effort. It’s really beautiful, I like it a lot.” This caused the older woman to adorn a bright smile in satisfaction for her efforts.
“You better rest now. You must be exhausted from such a hectic day. We’ll leave you alone now. If you need anything let me or Sunwoo know.”
“Yes. Thankyou.” Nana replied.
“C’mon Sunwoo. Lets leave so she can rest.”
“You go ahead Mom. I’ll leave after a while.”
Sunwoo’s mom hesitated for the moment about leaving them alone but slowly retreated from the room.
Sunwoo grabbed Nana’s hand and let her to sit on her bed next to him. Nana stared in confusion at Sunwoo’s behavior and tried to stop ridiculous & embarrassing thoughts from entering her head.
“Nana, do you feel better now?”
“Yeah I do. I’m comfortable, your family is very sweet trying to make as comfortable as possible.”
“That’s good then. I’m glad. Did you speak to your parents?”
“I did. Just some time after dinner.”
“Okay then. I will be leaving now. Sleep comfortably and let me know if you need anything.”
Nana nodded her head in acknowledgement and Sunwoo affectionately patted her head, before leaving the room. She finally changed into her pyjamas and got ready for bed. It felt weird to be in a different room. She giggled at the fact that she was spending her wedding night alone in a room with her husband away in his own room. the mere that she was a married woman seemed funny to her.
Sleep not coming to her soon, she realized that she spent the last few nights on the phone with Sunwoo before falling asleep and it had now become a routine. Out of curiosity she messaged him a king if he were awake but was shocked to see her phone ringing in an instant. She answered the call hesitantly wondering if she disturbed him.
“I’m sorry if I disturbed you.” She apologized immediately.
“Not at all. In fact, I wanted to call you but wondered if you were asleep.”
“Why?”
“I don’t know. Maybe it’s become a routine for us.”
“Isn’t it funny that we are now in the same house in different rooms but still talking over the phone.”
“Oh. Do you want me to come over to your room then?” He offered.
“No!” She replied almost instantly.
“Okay. So are you still uncomfortable that you can’t sleep?”
“No. Honestly, It does not feel as different as I thought it would. Maybe you are right, it’s more about the familiar faces than the surroundings. But I still think I will miss my home.”
“Don’t worry. You get more familiar with my family and here soon too. I promise to help you get familiar and as comfortable as possible.”
“Thanks.”
“Nana, I forgot to tell you something.”
“What is it?”
“You looked beautiful in your wedding dress today.” Nana blushed in surprise and delight.
“Thank you.” She replied trying her best not seemed as if she had been waiting for him to say it for the entire day.
“Were you waiting for me to say it?” He teased her a bit.
“Not at all. But you did not look so bad either.”
“Oh really. Thank you for that. I got a lot of compliments from many women too.” He teased trying to incite a reaction from her which for his amusement, she did.
They continued their conversation for a while about the wedding at people they meet today.When both of them began yawning from exhaustion and sleep finally started getting the better of them, they decided to end the call. The new couple then finally drifted off into deep slumber in their respective rooms.
Perfect Match Chapter 5 [Monstar fanfic]
5.Explanations
It was already dark as he peered outside the window next to his seat. Sunwoo wondered if he would have enough courage to come back again tomorrow. The chances seemed bleak since his resolve was already shattering slowly, as he fought with his inner urge to get down at a random stop before reaching his destination. It was a now or never situation for him, but there were high chances that even if he were to still go to his intended destination, the person he wanted to see would not be there.
Nana had suddenly turned up at his college to return his book, which made no sense to him. He was damn sure that she had come for a whole other reason, like she had something to say to him. If that were true, then he would love to hear it because her casual attitude on their last meeting irked him.
The past few days were a blur in his memory, as he was always preoccupied in thoughts which were a rare occurrence in his otherwise busy life. He was always focused on his work or studies and rarely distracted. He was set on his goal but on a sudden day his past caught up on him.
The fact that the said girl had possibly taken the first step to have a clear conversation pleased him. The only thing he could hope now as he reached his final stop was of Nana still being there. The sound of doors opening alerted him as he quickly grabbed his bag and got down from the bus.
It did not take him long before he found the store and was glad to find it open. He pushed the glass doors silently praying and scanned the interior of the store. It looked like they were about to close when he spotted the petite figure at the end of aisle of apparels.
He watched her as their gazes met and noticed how eyes turned from recognition to that of surprise. At least she looked pleased to see him as she walked towards him with a smile. He offered an awkward smile in return not knowing how to actually talk to her. He had boldly rushed to meet her and demand answers but never sure where to start.
“Hey.”, she greeted surprised at his sudden appearance.
“Hey.”, he replied unsure.
“What are you doing here?” She asked in confusion though she was glad that she got to see him today. She had missed meeting him at his university despite waiting for a long time.
He raised the book in his hand as some sort of reply hoping that she would draw her own conclusions without having to explain himself. When he realized that she was not getting his point, he thanked her instead and began making excuses.
“I wanted to thank you for coming all the way to return it. I remembered that you work at a clothing store and I needed to get a coat for my mom’s birthday. That’s why I thought I could kill two birds with a stone.”
“Oh. That’s good then. I can help you with that, I’m sure we have something that you can give your mother. And you don’t need to thank me, it was nothing.”
They managed to find something good enough as a gift for his mother and Nana had personally tended to him even though it was way past the store’s regular closing time. Sunwoo was glad he was quick enough to come with an excuse before he ended up making his intentions more obvious. His mom’s birthday was over last month but he was sure she would love to receive another present, though it made a hole in his pocket.
He offered to wait for her till she closed the store , since his intention of coming to see her was to get some explanation. As she caught up to him, he learned that her home was a walking distance from the store and he offered to walk her home. He was glad when she did not refuse his offer. As they began walking, they were silent with only her asking irrelevant questions which he replied to curtly.
Anger and irritation began to build up in him at her nonchalance and causal manner again. He thought that she had come all the way to see to him because she had something say, it was obviously not for a book. He hoped that she just did not come to show that she now wanted to become friends and just be causal with forgoing the past. He clenched his fists in frustrations while heaving out a deep sigh and stopped in his tracks, causing her to turn around and stare at him in question.
“Are you going to continue behaving like this, Nana?”
“What do you mean?”
“I know you did not go all the way there, just to deliver a book! You definitely had something to say.”
Her silence and down cast eyes confirmed all his suspicions. But her prolonged silence agitated him further as his patience was withering thin.
“Tell me the truth Nana. Why did you come to see me? What did you want to say? Even that day you acted so casual as if there was nothing wrong or weird about it. You want us to be on friendly terms, is that it?”
“Maybe. But it’s just not that.”
“Then what is it? If you want to be friends, then I can’t do it. It’s weird to me.”
“Why can’t we? Why can’t we be on normal and friendly terms with each other? ”
“Its not easy……It’s weird and I can’t do that. How can be just forget that we had a past and act normal. It’s not a necessity for us. We can just become strangers to each other since we do not have a real reason for it.”
“I’m not asking for us to be best buddies. I just want to civil enough where we can ask how the other is doing.”
“No. I don’t want that. You had five years to contact me and ask me how I’m doing. You can’t just ask me to forget that you suddenly broke all contact with me and I had to just accept it.”
“I know that I’m at fault. I’m sorry that I even asked that from you.”
“Of course. We never even technically broken up with each other. I just had to accept that. Do you know how hard it was for me?”
“Of course I know. Did you think that it was not hard for me? What did you expect, did you think we could manage a long distance relationship? It would make things harder.”
“One last call or goodbye would have been fine.”
“You could have called me as well. It was too difficult for me to even hear your voice. I was scared that I would drop everything and come running back to you. It was the same reason you did not try to contact me as well, because you knew that.”
Her confession seemed to shut him up and she looked on the verge of tears. H seemed to calm down and tried to calm her as well. He must have upset ted her too much.. He was too upset to even notice that they had caught attention of a few passersby.
“I’m sorry too, I was too upset and vented it out on you. But I really want to know why you wanted to see me. ”
” After that day, I kept thinking about you. So I wanted to talk with you, catch up with you and know how you have been doing. I wanted to apologize as well.”
“Me too. After seeing you, even I wanted to meet you again. But the fact that you were so causal, bothered me a lot. I felt like an only idiot holding on to the past.”
“I behaved that way because I did not want it to be awkward than it already was. ”
Sunwoo let out a small laugh at her reply because he really was idiot. Nana could not be that insensitive but he was glad to know that the feelings was mutual. Slowly they really began catching up, filling in all the gaps regarding their life and family. They particularly left out asking details about the eachother’s love life, since it would just lead to awkwardness or disappointment. They had met each other on a blind date so it was dumb to think that they would have not thought about other people since each other. Though it was true in Sunwoo’s case where he refused to commit to a relationship.
“I have younger brother now.” Nana surprised him.
“Woah. When did that happen?”
“Two years after I left. He is three now. Thing’s turn around after he was born. My family has never been happier.”
“That’s great news. But wasn’t it difficult for your mom?”
“Yeah it was. It took a toll on her health because of her age. We were struggling financially too. Even, I had to work to bring in some money. Those were such hard times, that I just wanted to run back into your arms. ”
That statement from her got Sunwoo’s heart racing and he cursed at himself for this was not the time to have such thoughts.
“But I couldn’t do it. My parents had given up their money and power filled life for my demand of having a normal life. They did so much for me since then. But when he was born, my father’s business that he set up with a friend began to pick up. I received a scholarship for my designing school and I began to sell a few of my designs. Our family has gotten closer as well. I never had been so close to my parents. They even came all the way to my aunt’s to convince me and promise me to start a new life, but that couldn’t have happened here. ”
Now that he heard her side of the story he understood that he had been such her jerk who only focused on his hurt feelings and disregarded her feelings.They slowly picked up their pace back till they reached near her home.
“So how long are you going to be in Korea?”
“I moved permanently. My parents and brother will be moving back here soon too.”
“I’m sorry Nana. For being such a jerk. I promise I will try so that we can be on friendly terms.”
“I missed you.” She whispered to him while embracing him in short hug before he could react, she backed away and bid him farewell before returning home. Sunwoo gathered his thoughts back as his frustrations all went away and he felt relieved. He admitted while smiling to himself.
“I missed you too.”
Perfect Match Chapter 4 [Monstar fanfic]
4.A chance or luck
It had been over two weeks since Sunwoo had meet Nana and had gone back to his daily life routines. He was still indecisive whether he wanted to see her again.It felt better to not stir things up that had been hidden beneath their memories. He decided that it was just better to give since it was no longer going to lead them anywhere.
He was currently having Lunch with Kangwoo, since they had a three hour lecture after their lunch break, when Kangwoo felt that it was the most appropriate time to bring up Nana in the conversation yet again. Sunwoo so wished his friend had a silent mode on him that he could press whenever he got annoying.
“Don’t get upset. I’m not pressuring you or anything.But what should I tell HaNa ? She has been asking me about what happened?”
“Tell her the usual.”
“I think Nana did not tell her about you two. Do you think we should just be truthful?”
“No.Don’t do that. Just let things be as they are. She does’nt want to tell anyone, then why should I?”
“So, you have decided that you won’t call her at all?”
“Yeah…….I think it’s for the best.”
“You done?”
“Yeah.”
“Then, lets leave before we are late for class.”
“Ok.”
The two of them headed to their class and just as they were about to enter their classroom, they were approched by one of their classmate. He handed Sunwoo a bag which confused him.
“What’s this?”
“Some girl was waiting for you for a long time ouside the building. She asked me whether I knew you and when I told that I did, she asked me as a favor if I could give this to you. She said that she wanted to return since you left it behind and wanted to give it to you personally but was running late.”
“Thank you.”
“No problem.”
Their classmate walked by and Sunwoo opened the bag to see its contents. He was suprised to find his book that he had been trying to look for a few days. It then hit him. It was the same book that he had been reading before his date with Nana at the cafe. Now that he could recall, he definitely remembered leaving it on their table even after they left their table. How exactly did the book end up here?
“Sunwoo, what is in it?”
“It’s my book. It left it at the cafe last time.”
“Hey, look there is a note attached.”
You left it at the cafe last time and Iwanted to return it.I waited for a while but I had to leave, so I am sending it through your classmate.Sorry.
-Nana
Kangwoo handed over the note to Sunwoo who re-read the note several times to let it sink in. Nana came all the way to his college to return a book. How did she have it in the first place, they had left the cafe together. Sunwoo was beyond confused and the same time pleasantly suprised.
“What are you going to do now?”
“I don’t know.”
“What do you mean you don’t know? She came here all the way to see you.”
“You really think so?”
“C’mon you are not that dumb. You really think that she came all the way here and waited to give you a book?”
“I just don’t get it. If she wanted to see me, why did’nt she give me her number?”
“Did you ask her or give her your number?”
“No.”
“Of couse, you did’nt. Look, I think she wants to meet you again. Try to talk it out.”
“Okay, I will think about it.”
“Good. Now, lets go to class.”
The whole time during class, the only thing that Sunwoo could think about was Nana’s sudden appearance at his school. It felt too much just to be a simple visit to return a book. The sheer fact that she had waited for him or even the simple fact of returning a silly book was puzzling to him. When was his issue with the his past love ever going to end. It took years with Seyi and now Nana.
What sort of cruel deeds did he do in his past life, maybe he was a complete player in the past life that’s why now he ends up pining over a single girl for years. His friend kept nudging him to pay attention in class but he was way past the point of distraction. He was going to to have a mental breakdown soon if he got no answers.
He fingers fidgeted in his pocket until he could feel the sharp edge of a card. The card that Nana had given him had the address of her store. Yes, he was carrying it around and he was not sure why but now he is glad that he did. If Nana could come all the way here to return a book, he could go down there to thank her.
As soon as the last class was over, Sunwoo packed his belongings and fled but his friend was fast enough to catch up and Sunwoo did not want to answer him.
“Sunwoo, where are you fleeing off to?”
“Nothing.I just need to be somewhere. I’ll come back soon.”
“Sunwoo, no can do. We got a group report to finish, they are waiting.”
Oh no. He completely forgot about it. It will be too late if he left after the meeting, but he could’nt mess up with his group members. He may have to postpone seeing her yet another day.
Two of his group members were half an hour late. He should have just left and not waited this long. He would try to compensate later but his conscience did not let him.
“Sunwoo, you look restless like hell. Where do you have to be?”
“It’s nothing. I’m fine.”
“Is it about Nana? Are you going to see her?”
“No, I mean yes.”
“You should have said so sooner,fool. Wait let me see.”
His friend called out to his two other group members and convince them to start the meeting, since Sunwoo was running late. After the main discussion was over, he asked Sunwoo to leave and convinced everyone that he would fill him in later.
“Leave before I change my mind. Make me proud.” He patted his friend on the back.
“Thank you. I will treat you.”
It was close to the store’s closing time and Sunwoo just hoped that she would still be there. For he knew that another night would just be pure torture.
Perfect Match Chapter 3 [Monstar fanfic]
3.Why now?
On his way back, Sunwoo began to wonder as to how he happened to meet Nana after all these years.Five years.Five long years, had passed since they had seen or spoken to each other. Seriously, what were the odds? Both of them had changed, past their teenage into adulthood, living completely separate lives.
Why now? Why now of all times did he happen to meet her. He began questioning himself with no answer forming in his mind. She had changed so much much that he did not know whether to be happy or sad by it. She looked so happy and relaxed when she saw him. Her laid back and friendly manner made him wonder if she was the same person he knew back then. Her casual and unconcerned approach sparked a disappointed feeling such that he decided to bring up the past just for moment. He instantly gave up when he felt that he was the only one clinging to things that were supposed to be bygones. So he decided to endure it and move on.
Moving on. It’s such a simple yet complicated concept. You are supposed to let go of things like everyone else does whether or not you have some closure. Just when you think that you have move past all your past regrets, hurt, feelings and relationships that you left behind, one instance is enough to ruin all your effort.
It happened with him before when he met Seolchan and Seyi after years from childhood. He began reflecting on his regrets for his friendship with Seolchan and his feelings for Seyi again resurfaced. Hush, but all in vain though he did get some sort of closure in the end. With Nana, there wasn’t any need for closure and they knew that they just had to accept their fate.
To be honest, he hadn’t thought about Nana for quite a while. They had been apart for so long that it was bound to happen. Past high-school, he got busy with his studies,college, work and friends, just trying to shape up his life. He had taken up some major decisions in his life thought out this time.
He moved out from his parents home and tried to live on his own. He got a scholarship and took up part time jobs to cover his living expenses. When he had announced his decision to his parents, they were adamantly against it. They had grown overprotective of him after loosing his sister, but Sunwoo had made his decision.His father refused to speak to him for quite a while but it ended through the interference of his mother. He still visits his parents from time to time. His mother would still send foods and things under the pretext of his roommate, Kangwoo, but Sunwoo pretended to be oblivious because he understood his mother’s heart.
On the other hand, his roommate was a terrible which is why he always caught on when his friend tried to scheme him into attending set ups. Sunwoo initially resisted strongly but slowly relented against his friends efforts.
He replayed the scene in his mind, when both of them exited the cafe. He felt natural holding the door for her and even walking beside her. The occasional moments when their hands brushed ever so lightly, sent a familiar tingle in his heart. He noticed her blushing too, glad to know that he was not the only one affected. When she was about to leave, she handed him her store card which had her stores details asking to drop by if he ever needed anything. She did not actually give away her number to him, that meant that she did not want to meet again.
“So how did the date go?”, Kangwoo asked him the umpteenth time when Sunwoo still refused to answer him.
“Why did you take so long, if you did not like her? You bailed out of all dates within an hour. Tell me the truth before I call and ask her.”
“We were talking so it took us long. I just dropped her and came here for dinner.”
“That’s great did.Did you get her number?”
“No. She just gave me this.” He said as he tossed Nana’s store card to his friend.
“Does this mean you are going to meet her?”
“No.She was just being nice.”
“No, she was not.How do you know that? I met her quite a few times, she never gave me her card.”
“She is my ex. You idiot.”
“What? Your high school girlfriend. The one and only.”
“Yes. ”
“Oh.”
“Now, are you happy?”
“Sorry,dude. I did not know it was her.”
” That’s okay.”
Kangwoo was shocked at Sunwoo’s admission. He never really spoke about his ex or how they broke up. He only knew that she was his only ever girlfriend since then. He never found him still pining over his past so he assumed that he was over it. But now, looking at his behavior ,he understood that his friend was far from over Kim Nana. Who knew, that the world would be such a small place?
Now that he knew who his ex was, Kangwoo realized that Sunwoo’s standards were way different from what he described. Heck, she was the complete opposite of it and he had him totally fooled. Maybe, he decided to change his preference after their breakup.
Sunwoo had been distracted ever since that day and almost a week had passed since then. He regretted on setting him up, but his friend was really tiring at times.He only spent his time at working, studying or occasionally with him. Zero social life. Maybe, he should have just let him be.
He sighed as his found staring intently at the card, once again. If he wants to meet her, he should go through it at least once.
“Ya. If you want to meet her so badly, just go. Don’t act like such a loser.”
“I don’t know what you are talking about.”
“If you are trying to make feel guilty, then you already win. If not, then please get over it. I can get her no. from HaNa if you want.”
“You shall do no such thing.”
“Okay.Just tell me this one thing. Did you two have a nasty break up? Did she dump you or cheat on you?”
“No.”
“Then why?”
“We never officially broke up.”
“What?”
“She went away to U.S. for a few months. But due to some reasons, her stay became permanent and we just stop contacting each other. So we officially never called it quits.”
“Did she say anything?”
“No. She was so normal. So even I made no attempts to drag the topic. We just spoke too casually. That’s what weirded me out”
“Do you still like her?”
“I don’t know. We haven’t seen each other for five years.”
“Then call her, meet her and become sure of what you want. Or just let it go.Don’t mope around.”
“Arasso.”
Sunwoo swept his hand through his hair and set the card aside and prepared to call it a night. He wondered whether he should meet Nana and properly have a conversation with her or just let it go. He would soon make his decisions whether or not to dig deep for answers that may or may not hurt him.
“Sunwoo, why did you lie to me?”
“About what?”
“Your ideal type. You totally bluffed me.That why all my previous efforts went in vain.”
“No. I did not lie. I described to you how my first love was. It was not Nana.”
“Who knew you would have such a complicated love life?”
“Shut up and go to sleep .”
Perfect Match Chapter 2 [Monstar fanfic]
2.Catching up
Sunwoo was still dumbstruck on seeing Nana after nearly five years since their high graduation. He noticed that she had a completely different aura around her than before. She was smiling more easily than she used too. Heck, he could count the no. of times he had seen her smile on his fingertips.
She was smiling so genuinely at him that he couldn’t help but smile warmly at her too. His friend was right, she was much prettier than the girls he was set up with.
He noticed that she had gotten a lot more feminine and softer in her dressing style. She had worn makeup which she never did before. It was weird at the same time pleasant, looking at these changes in her which happened in the past five years. He realised that he had been staring at her for far too long.
“It is weird meeting up like this after all this while right?”
“Yeah it is. How have you been?”
“I’m doing good. What about you? When did you get back?”
“It’s been about seven months now. I happened to meet Seolchan back in the U.S. when he was on tour. He told me that how others have been doing but he did not know much about you.”
” Yeah. We haven’t really talked much since graduation. Just drifted apart with our busy lives. Forget me, you just broke contact with all of us since you left.”
Her face wavered for a second and she lost her smile through rest of the conversation.
” How was life in the U.S.?”
“It was fine. Setting up a new life there after leaving everything behind was tough on our family. My parents had it harder since they left everything they for my sake.”
” We are glad it worked out for you Nana. ”
Memories was rushing back for the both of them. Neither wanted to give in to their weakness in front of each other. They say in awkward silence for a while.
Nana couldn’t help but think about handsome he got over the years. He looked buffer with broad shoulders and she could swear he looked a lot taller. Even his facial features had changed with a sharp jawline but he still had the same look in his eyes. That was what made her fall for him in the first place but she would never admit that to him. She broke from her trance when he started talking to her again.
“So how long are you going to be in Korea?”
” I’m here on my job, so mostly probably I’m going to stay here for good.”
Sunwoo was not sure as to why it made him happy.
” May I ask where you are working for?”
“I’m not working for a company. But I got a chance to open my store with the help of some sponsors. ”
” That’s great. ”
Nana looked at the book that was placed on the side of their table. He still had the habit of reading at every chance that he got. This caused her to smile at which she earned a puzzled look from Sunwoo.
” I heard you are studying law. How is that working out for you?”
” Yeah. It’s good.”
” Are you still working into music?”
“Not much as before. But still whenever I get the chance, I play or sing. U?”
” I did some gigs back in US with a band for a while. But after I was offered a scholarship to study fashion designing, I didn’t do it as much as I used to.”
“How do you know HaNi and Kangwoo? They will be surprised to know that we know each other, won’t they?”
“I’m sure they will be very surprised. I know HaNi when we were interning at the same company. I don’t really know Kangwoo, I met him just once or twice.”
“How are we being so casual Nana? Shouldn’t it be more awkward? It was so hard for me back then when you just left and didn’t contact me at all.”
“It was hard for me too. When I left, I was not sure if the move was permanent. I did not contact you because it would make even more difficult for me to be away.”
“I know. I’m sorry…..I did not mean to say it. It’s all in the past.”
Sunwoo wanted to say so many things to her. He wanted to yell at her, hug her, comfort her and so much more. But he couldn’t do it now. They were old acquaintances now, just somebody from each others past. Time passed and changed them and their lives. Especially the situation in which they met, was awkward in itself. He did not even expect to see her again.
“I’m sorry for breaking contact, for leaving, for everything.”
“Don’t apologise. There was nothing you or I could do then. I knew that when you left, you would be gone for good. ”
“You never tried to contact me too.”
“Hmm….I’m sorry too. Like you said, it would make it harder for us.”
Sunwoo avoided eye contact with her as he wanted to change the topic that he bought up in the first place.
“Let’s forget it. No more talk about it. How are things between you and your parents?”,
“We have never been happier together. We had many good things happen to us since we left.”
“I’m happy for you. Nana.”
“Ahh…thank you. You have changed a lot since I last saw you. For the good.You speak a whole lot more.”
“You too. You never spoke so openly before. I’m glad.”
Their conversations took a pleasant turn again, though few words were spoken. They spoke in little words about their work, their friends. That’s it, without much personal feelings involved.
When they finally did leave, Sunwoo dropped her till her stop before she have him her card of her store. He bid her farewell and left for his way home.
He received a text from his friend whether he will be joining them for dinner.
Joining us for dinner or still busy with your date??😏
-Kangwoo
I just left. I’ll meet you directly at the restaurant.
-Sunwoo
Since you took so long. I’m guessing you liked her.
-Kangwoo
You have no idea.
-Sunwoo
Why? You will meet her again, right?
-Kangwoo
Maybe. I’ll tell you later.
-Sunwoo
K.
-Kangwoo
His friend had no idea what news was in store for him.
Perfect Match Chapter 1 [Monstar fanfic]
1.Blind dates
The bright lighting, simple and classy interior, the aroma of coffee beans and the dim music in the background of the cafe made it a wonderful spot for a casual first date.
Sunwoo glanced at his watch and concluded that his date was already 20 minutes late. That was a minus point in his opinion. He wouldn’t be here if not for his nosy friends.
This was not the first time his friends set him up on a blind date without his knowledge.
Their tricks were not so amusing anymore. At first, he found it funny as they tried hard not to let him know. But now, he just always understood what they were up to so he just went along with it.
He gets that they were concerned that he hasn’t had a girlfriend since they have known him. But sometimes, he wished they would just let him be.
He has been out on plenty of blind dates thanks to their courtesy, but none of them worked out for him. Some were pretty, some were smart but none of them clicked for him. The most he went out with a girl was about three weeks. Maybe, he was just not ready for a long term relationship right now.
Hey, she not here yet. I’m just gonna wait 5 min more, then I’m leaving.
-Sunwoo
Don’t leave. She’ll be there. You won’t be disappointed.
-Kang Woo
5 minutes later.
She not here. I’m leaving.
-Sun woo
His phone rang in a instant after sending the message.
” Sunwoo ya, don’t just leave. I talked to her friend. She said she’ll be there any minute. ”
“She is already half hour late. She shouldn’t make me her date wait, that’s just rude.”
” Actually, she is not late. You’re early. I did not know that you would go there without fussing, unlike other times. It would take an hour only to convince you. It’s all your fault.”
“How is it my fault? I’m not even dressed for a date. ”
” Don’t worry dude. She is really cool in that sense. She is really pretty too.”
” All the girls that you set me have been pretty. I’m not even sure how it makes her different.”
” She not really your ideal type. I set you up with girls who are short and have a small frame, cute face with long hair, or with girl who have a sweet and kind personality like you described about your ideal type. But you did not like anyone.”
” I did not ask you to. I’m happy with being alone for now.”
“Dude, your last girlfriend was back in high school. You need to enjoy dating too and not just immerse yourself in books. This girl may not exactly be your ideal type but I think that she will really suit you. This girl is much prettier than the previous girls. ”
” Wait. I think she is here. Hold on.”
Sunwoo watched the slim figure enter through the cafe’s door dressed in a leather jacket over a pair of white tee and ripped jeans adorned with high length boots.
She had a tall and slim figure with shoulder-length brown wavy hair and black sunglasses that blocked the view of her face.
Sunwoo berated himself that he should have dressed better. She was definitely pretty but his friend forgot to mention that she was hot too.
Suddenly, something nagged at the back of his mind and the closer she stepped ,the more familiar she looked.
“What is her name? The girl you set me up with?”
“Kim Nana. Why, you know her? She just got back from U.S. few months ago. ”
He cut the call and stood he finally came face to face with his blind date. She took off her sunglasses and looked at him with the same doe eyes with a surprised look.
“Sunwoo…..!”
“Kim Nana…..It’s been a while.”
“Yes….it has.” She said as she returned him a smile.
Meeting Kim Nana as his blind date was the last thing he expected.
You Chose Me Chapter 7 [Monstar fanfic]
7.Smiles go a long way
It had been two weeks since the two young teens had decided to turn their fake relationship official and start dating. Definitely one of the best decisions they had made in a while. It had been so blissful that neither of them wanted to lose it.
Nana was happy to finally have him treat as more than a classmate, band mate,a friend or a fake fiance. He was such a perfect boyfriend and treated her very well, which always made her a blushing mess. She was too cautious and shy around him, because he was sometimes too sweet to her to be true. All the times that he hurt her before, just seemed to vanish in just a matter of days.
Maybe she was being a fool in love, but who cares when she was this happy. The wait had been too long for her to have complains now, and she was going to make the best of it. Sometimes in the middle of the night, her mind would be occupied with fears and doubts of things going wrong suddenly or this being a dream.
The preparations for the wedding had been going well, since the elders of the two families were handling it. Nana could notice the conflict of interest between the two families but her parents did not want to let her know, how much ever she tried to prod. She was getting along with her parents much better, and they were happy to finally have their daughter open up to her again. The girl had finally found happiness in life with acceptance and love from the people who had become important to her.
Sunwoo, on the other hand to finally have his feelings reciprocated. Though, his girlfriend had not yet admitted her feelings, he hoped that her behavior towards him were a proof of hidden feelings. She would blush and smile around him a whole lot more.
He would walk her home from school or either accompanied her at her studio, whenever he found the time. They even went out on small dates, even if meant to grab a quick meal or get their wedding outfits ready. Sunwoo had gotten a bit bolder in expressing his affection towards Nana by holding her hand while walking together or even occasionally wrapping his arm around her shoulders. He even managed to sneak her into warm embraces which she did not seem mind, though she would get shy about it and playfully push him away. .
He had to admit that this side of Nana made his heart warm because he was the only one to see it, hopefully. Regrets lingered in his mind about the way they got together, rather than first entering a fake relationship first, he wished they had started on a better note like other couples. But then, what was normal to them?
Forgetting the technicalities, enjoying her and their time together would be his main priority so that they could nurture their relationship worthy of a real marriage in the future. He is now trying to makeup for all the times, he hurt Nana by treating her well and show his sincerity. Best part of dating was that he now no longer had to make excuses to see her or hesitate to say the truth about wanting to see her.
Whole along since the day he took her name in front of his parents, his daily life had changed so much. He was easily distracted and occupied in thoughts with new suprises being thrown at his face. Truth be told, it was affecting his academics and performance at school. He had no idea about how Nana was faring so far but he hoped it was not worse than before.
Classes had been going on as usual, and the gossip and whispers was slowly dying out. Their classmates had gotten used to seeing them together and accepted the idea. Though they got sly smiles or annoyed expressions directed at them, but her boyfriend did not seem to mind it, so she choose to ignore it as well. Addressing him as her boyfriend still felt weird, but their labels were already messed up.
They did not interact much at school, similar to before since it did not feel very natural to them. He no longer sat beside her and was back to earlier his earlier seating arrangement. Though, occasionally they would catch each other sneaking glances at the other and end up sending embarrassed smiles to each other. Mostly, it was Sunwoo smiling and Nana looking away which he did not fail to tease her about.
Other times, when they would be engaged in conversation with their band mates, his hand would rest on the back of her chair or he would lean towards her with his palms holding his weight against her desk. They were certain subtle moments that made her inwardly rejoice. She found him the silliest when he would stand closer her or suddenly call her name to ask a silly question to make his presence known, whenever KyuDong was around.
She had a face to face conservation with Kyudong where she thanked him for his feelings but turned him down and the guy accepted it gracefully. He even apologized for causing problems between her and Sunwoo, for which he was forgiven. It was that incident, that got the two of them together but she couldn’t admit that to him. Though they had resolved the issue, it did not mean that all was well. It was still awkward, since Nana sensed that DoNam and SeolChan were aware of what had transpired between the three of them.
Nana had received a text message from Sunwoo asking her if she was free for the entire weekend. When she gave an affirmative answer, he asked her to go out on a proper and full fledged date. Not just a quick bite or a hanging out at her studio, but an entire day at the movies, shopping and a meal together. He had already seeked an approval from her parents so that they could stay out a little bit more later than usual, given that he wanted their date to be special.
As she set her phone aside, her palms automatically moved to cover the blood rushing to her cheeks. The thought of spending more time with him, sent her heart at a rushing pace. They have spent plenty of time together alone recently or their previous coupon dates, but this time it was different since he it would be their first official date initiated by him. And the fact that he went out of his way to seek her parent’s approval, made it swoon worthy.
Just a day away, and she wanted to choose an outfit for the date, but she found nothing that would make her happy.She finally decided to put together her own outfit by making it herself as she shuffled through her own designs. This would be one of the most rare occasions where she made clothes for herself. This reminded her of the jacket that she made for Sunwoo long back and contemplated if he still had it. She pushed it to the back of her head before her mood turned sour and got to work.
Days passed quickly and it was finally the weekend which the young couple had highly anticipated. Sunwoo messaged asking her about where would pick her up from- her home or her work studio. She insisted on meeting him directly at the theater but he was adamant so she finally relented and told him to come to her studio apartment. She wore a splatter print blouse with peter-pan collar and long black sleeves over a pair of black leggings adorned with silver chain, and wore light makeup letting down her hair. She got rid of her curls and straightened her hair which made it look longer in length. It was neither too flashy nor too subtle and wondered if Sunwoo would like it. She was never too feminine with wearing skirts or dresses very often unlike Seyi.
She received a message of Sunwoo saying that he was waiting outside her studio, she quickly did a once over at the mirror and left. When she finally met up with him, he started at her for a while before giving her a warm smile. She walked to his side biting her lips in anticipation waiting for him to say something wondering if she looked too weird but he broke her chain of thoughts quickly.
“Shall we leave? We might be late for the movie.”
She nodded quickly and began to walk side by side without talking much. It felt all too weird for them as it was their first official date and neither of them had much to contribute to the silence. Sunwoo had decided to clear the awkwardness and began asking her questions of what kind of movie she wanted to watch and what she wanted to do after the movie and sorts.
Slowly easing into the conversation, he grabbed her hand in his when they were crossing the road but still did not let go. He tried to act non-chalant about it as it were completely natural for them, but Nana could call his bluff when he refused to meet her eyes. She blushed intensely and held his hand back ever so lightly that caused Sunwoo to smile to himself. The day had already begun on a good note and he hoped it would remain that way.
“Which movie should we watch?” Sunwoo asked as they reached the theater,
“I’m not really sure. I hoped you already had something in mind.”
“Ah, so how about we watch a comedy movie like last time?” he suggested.
“Last time?” Nana was lost as to what he was trying to say.
“Hmm, when we had to watch the movie twice because of the reporter.”
“Oh, now I remember.” Nana chimed.
It was kind of a bittersweet memory for her because the first time they watched it, she was happy that he was enjoying it alone with her. The second time was horrible because the jokes had already become stale to them or it had to do with the fact that Seyi, Seolchan , Sunwoo and herself were upset at meeting each other in the given circumstances. The reporter’s interference had made it all the more worse and she had to invite the rest of the gang for their fake group date. One of the worst moments for all of them in their life so far. Each teen had his or her own reason to be upset amongst the four of them.
“I have no intention of putting us through the torture of watching it again. Let’s try to enjoy it just once between the two of us.” Sunwoo said with smirk as warmly as he could and managed to charm his way out of a situation yet again. Nana smiled back at him and nodded showing that she agreed with his suggested.
They booked their tickets quickly and grabbed popcorn & drinks to enjoy the movie. The movie was fairly decent and both seemed to be enjoy the jokes and the slapstick comedy involved. Similar to last time, Nana smiled to herself looking at him enjoying the movie with her and this time was not a forced or fake date. Sunwoo on the other hand, was happy that she was enjoying the movie a whole lot more than last time where she rarely laughed. He was intrigued as well as fascinated with her new side that smiled and laughed so earnestly in the past two weeks and wondered why she confined her emotions to such a degree.
Sunwoo wondered why he wasted so much time with something so hopeless with Seyi when he could have spent more time with Nana. He regretted expiring out the coupons and losing chance of what could have been a better start of a relationship between them. Now, he doubted whether he had already felt an attraction for Nana but pushed it away because of hid stubborn feelings for Seyi.
It was better late than never and he would make up for all the lost time if Nana allowed him too. He still mulled over the fact whether she really liked him back given that she had been so cold just two weeks ago. No one could guess over their now lovi-doviness that their relation between the two had been so strained and distant.
He guessed that she still reciprocated his feelings but he had to hear it from her today, one of the reasons to ask her out so suddenly. Apart from the fact that he wanted to spent time with her and be better to her. Half way through the movie, he sly grabbed her hand again in the dark which hardly startled her anymore. But she began to wonder if Sunwoo had always been this bold and expressive.
After the movie, they headed shopping much like their previous coupon dates but this time they bought gifts for each other. Sunwoo had purchased hats that she merely intended to try on to which she argued against. He argued back that he only bought them because it really suited her and it would be a waste. Nana pouted at his stubbornness and in retaliation dragged him into one of the stores. She made him try on shirts which she liked and purchased the one that she thought looked the best on him. This time it was Sunwoo’s turn argue at her stubbornness but he gave in more easily than she had.
“Nana, you should have not have bought this. ”
“I bought this simply because it suited you or else it would have been a waste.”
“But it’s not the same as a mere hat. ”
“You bought four of them and besides I think what I bought you from my choice suits you better.”
“In that case, let’s go to a store quickly and get you something of my choice.”
“You won’t know anything of a girl’s taste, let alone mine.”
“You could have just made me something. You are good at that aren’t you?”
“You would not like them anyway.”
“Why wouldn’t I? I still have the jacket you left me. I did not think that it would suit me but it does.”
“You still have the jacket?” She asked and he nodded in approval which spread a warm feeling in her chest.
The rest of the day through dinner went well as they dined at a restaurant as made small talk. Nothing major, with Sunwoo doing most of the talking and Nana answering with small replies to his questions. But there was a whole different manner in her talking today. She used more words and gone was the passive face and monotone in her voice and expression. There was more life and emotion in her voice other than hurt or anger. Just like her singing, her smiles and words held more depth and meaning today.
He could swear that he was more attracted to her than he ever was before, not to mention that she looked pretty today. She was not too out of her comfort zone, but enough to let anyone see how pretty she was. He failed to tell her that since he chickened out. He did not know how to tell her that without sounding too cheesy or cliché.
Sunwoo walked her to her home just as he did now almost every other day. They had been silent since the dinner as Sunwoo was still contemplating about asking her feelings without scaring her away. Nana too did not seemed to mind the silence as she enjoyed just walking with him. They stood for while a little away from her home, when Nana broke her silence.
“Thanks for leaving me. It’s getting late.You should head home.” She said with concern and shyness in her tone.
“Yeah. I will. I had a great time today.”
“Me too.”
“Okay then. See you.”
None of them made a move or leave or even spoke a word. Nana decided to make a move and leave before they ended up standing there the whole night.
“I will leave then. See you.”
“Nana. wait?” He called out in panic.
“What? Something wrong? ”
“Nothing. I just wanted to say that you looked pretty today.”
“Ah,….thankyou.” She blushed furiously and was glad that her efforts paid off.
“Actually I have something to say.”
“What is it?” she asked.
“Not say. But I have to ask you?”
“Say it.” His nervousness worried her.
“Last time, when I told you I have feelings for you and you agreed to date me, I assume that you feel something back as well but I want to be sure now. It’s been driving me crazy thinking of the possibilities.”
“Ah….Huh…what?..” She fumbled in her speech in utter shock.
“I don’t mean to pressure you. I just want to be sure without any false assumptions. I don’t want you to bear the burden if you don’t feel the same. I wanted to know if there is the slightest chance. ” He bit his lips as he rambled on his speech but was cut short with Nana’s curt reply.
“Yes.” She said looking down on the ground. There was no point in hiding anyway since her behavior towards him already gave it away. It seemed foolish if she kept denying, or it may also cause him to move away again.
“You sure?” He was already smiling but wanted to be sure and when she nodded in reply, he was ecstatic.
He grabbed her hands in his and rubbed her palms affectionately with his thumb and let out a sigh of relief. They stood for while like that and Sunwoo’s eyes kept darting towards her face, most specifically her lips. The sight of her biting her lip did not help either.
“You can move away if you don’t like it. I will understand.”
He warned her and slowly leaned towards her giving her time to back out if she did not want to. When he was sure that she was not moving away, he leaned further and closed the distance between them. He grabbed one of her shoulders softly and kissed her tenderly. He felt her responding back to his kiss as she leaned into him and he drew her closer to him. Then slowly parting away, he intently observed her face up close with a tender look in his eyes enjoying their blissful moment. He saw color returning to her cheeks and felt his own cheeks and neck grow warm as well. He added more distance between them as he let go of her and saw her tearing her gaze away from him to the ground.
“Nana”, he called her warmly as asked her to quickly go inside and took his leave as well before promising to talk via messages as he reached home.
You Chose Me Chapter 6 [Monstar fanfic]
6.Repercussion
It took precisely three days,11 hours and six seconds for Kim Nana to make up her mind to go back to school. Firstly, she did not care about school and secondly, there was no other reason.
Alright. Fine. It was a lie, she had other reasons but really, going to school was not on the top of her priority list. She really went because she just wanted to graduate. But this time she had really good reasons to ditch school.
She wanted to avoid two specific guys. Mr. Kyu Dong and Mr. Jung Sunwoo. One guy likes her but she likes the latter one. However, he does not like her but he is her fake boyfriend/fiancé. It was all too complicated. Her life resembled a jigsaw puzzle right now.
She wanted to avoid both of them at all costs. She did not know how to face Kyudong or how to behave around him. Ignoring is easy, if you have nothing to do with a person. But if a person likes you, what should one do? She has never been confessed to, but he was still a friend per say.
On the other hand, facing Sunwoo meant going through hurt all over again. It was also mean an end for them which she wanted to stall. But it had to be done. No delay. No drama.
It was not as bad as she expected, everyone was busy with their own thing. She was just a surprise routine after 3 days of leave for which she got an earful from their home room teacher.
Eunha and Seyi badgered her for not returning their calls and texts. She was filled with all that transpired in a span of three days.
“Nana, why were you absent? Why don’t you answer our calls? We were so worried.”
“Nothing.”
“Sunwoo told us that you were sick. Feel alright now?”
Wow. He covered up for her. Smooth, sly liar.
Everything was fine during school but she got occasionally weird looks here and there. Nothing new to her. During lunch, Eunha gave all the gossip that she could with breaks of stuffing food into her mouth occasionally.
“That Soori has been giving weird looks to Seolchan all week. She is up to something. Be careful Seyi, I’m telling you I don’t trust her.”
Seyi just smiled sweetly and listened to her without replying much.
School was pretty much back to normal. Both the boys refrained from bothering her and kept to themselves. Sunwoo was back to his own seat and avoided talking to her just like before. Kyudong avoided complete eye contact from her. None of them contacted in the past few days and gave her space to think.
She was grateful at the same time she was furious at them. They gave a bit too much space. An apology from the two guys who complicated her already complex life was expected. Boys are such jerks. They say what they want, do what they want and don’t even know to say sorry. She swore that she will never talk to them. Ever again.
Sunwoo had been regularly calling or texting her, she got so used to it that now it makes her feel sort of empty. But talking to him would mean that she would have to end everything between them and the thought of it frightened her. She still deserved a sorry and she would stick to that argument.
She was tuned out of the conversion but was brought back at Eunha comment.
” Sunwoo and Kyudong gave each other such cold looks yesterday.”
“Yes. Your right. It looked as if Sunwoo would punch Kyudong if not for DoNam being there.”
“What? When did this happen?”, Nana questioned.
“Yesterday. During P.E., the boys were at it during the game. Sunwoo vs DoNam and Kyudong. Things would have gotten worse if Seolchan didn’t drag Sunwoo away. Do you know anything Nana?”
“No.” Nana stiffened in her seat.
“Seolchan definitely knew something but wouldn’t tell us. He didn’t even come to lunch with us today. None of the boys did. I think it has something to do with you.”
” Why me? ”
“Maybe the boys want to hide something about Sunwoo so that you wouldn’t know.”
She just sighed because deep down she knew the reason for the chaos. Her.
God, when did she start getting so much attention from boys to fight over her? She was officially now a queen of controversy.
“Now, that you think about it, you two haven’t even a word to each other today. Did you two have a fight?”
Yes. “No.”
Why were they so nosy? ” We are trying to keep a low profile in school.” Why was she even giving explanations to them? Not needed.
“Ohh. Celeb couple?”
Yeah right.
Fortunately, the topic was dropped when the bell rung and she quickly dashed to class. She had to end this quickly, things were getting out of hand.
During second half of school, all that she could think was about the news Eunha provided her. Sunwoo’s reaction was rather unexpected.That day, he did not give a damn about Kyudong and behind her back, he has cold wars in school. This guy was way too complicated.
Where was the rational and straightforward crush of hers?
She warned herself before getting her hopes up. Can they still work things out?
She caught herself smiling but stopped herself. All she had for the past few days was cry and thought of no solution to rectify their blunder. She decided that she would talk to him and get answers. He was the smarter one amongst the two of them. He should have better solutions. She decided to be rational than be sentimental as it was a better way.
They were in English and we’re learning about quoted written by Pablo Neruda. His quotes described the fantasies and depth of true love.
She wondered if love can be felt that deep and give you that much happiness. All she got until now was just hurt, but she was still young to know that kind of love.However, she knew the feeling of loving someone, deep or not, young or mature.
Love in the end was just love.
She hoped to confront Sunwoo after school but panicked at the last moment and ran to the washroom to calm herself down. She returned to class only to find that he already left. She was disappointed to see that he had no intention of speaking with her.
She was pleasantly surprised to find him waiting for her outside the school gate.
” Long time no see.” He greeted her.
” We need to talk. Would you like to come with me or do you still need more time?”
” No. Let’s talk.”
Nana just got teasing looks from Eunha and Seyi when Sunwoo lead her with him.
It was a quite walk till they stopped to get something to eat. They just ate quietly with a few choice of words, she knew he was waiting to get the momentum going.
” Have you cooled off enough for us to finally talk?” He started and just nodded on approval.
” Before you say anything, I want to say sorry.”
She was surprised and happy to hear an apology. She couldn’t remember a time when he may have apologised to somebody. That was a pleasant start to the conversation.
“Let’s go to a more private place. It’s getting dark.”
She sat on a secluded bench on the park, away from everyone’s vision. Even if they started arguing, they would be well hidden.
“I heard you almost had a fight yesterday.”
“So you already know?”
“Yeah.”
” I would not call it a fight. More like an intense rivalry. But it’s all sorted now.”
” How so?”
” I spoke to him yesterday directly. He told me sincerely that he did not mean to cause trouble for anyone. He just wanted a way to move on.”
” Okay.” Nana responded awkwardly.
” He told that he been trying to tell you for a long time….confessing to you, I mean. But the news about us dropped on him, so out of the blue that he got confused. Seeking for closure, he sought you out that day to end it.”
He was looking directly at her face, as if reading her expressions. She blushed as it was an awkward topic to discuss with him.
“I don’t mean that I’m not still angry at him. I get it, I went through the same thing with Seyi and did the same thing. Though I understand, I have still not forgiven him entirely. For now, we have sorted it out.”
“You were angry at him?”
“Yes. I was very angry.”
“You seemed fine that day, why didn’t you react then?”
“I was too upset to admit it. Who wouldn’t be? I felt so guilty later to realize how SeolChan must have felt.”
This and that was different. Both of you liked Seyi, she thought.
“You dint say a thing. I yelled like a maniac at you, yet you did not say a word.”
He took a deep breath and exhaled.
“Of course, I was dead furious. You were hugging the guy when I found you two.” He sounded annoyed.
“Just to let you know that I was caught off guard. I did not even get a chance to react before you entered the picture.” She defended.
“You punched SeolChan when he did the same. Why couldn’t you push him away?”
“I told you. I was caught off guard. Don’t you get it? I have never had someone confess to me before so I did not know how to react.”
She blushed and looked away. Sunwoo seemed to calm down after her little confession. Rather than being angry like before, he looked confused.
“So it was just because you got off guard. Not because you may like him or that got swayed or anything like that?”
“No. I don’t like him in that way at all.”
Sunwoo breathed a huge sigh of relief because of her answer and it made Nana perplexed. Why did he think that she liked Kyudong?
“So that means you rejected him?”
“No.”
“What do you mean no?”
“I mean that I did not talk to him yet. We haven’t spoken since then. I told you a billion times and I’m telling you the last time. I was caught off guard.”
“Fine, sorry. I won’t bring it up again.”
“About that day, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have reacted so over dramatic.”
“It’s fine. I’m sorry too. But did you really mean all those things you said that day.”
“Yes. I did then.”
“What about now?”
“I don’t know. I was thinking we could talk it out and end it before it goes more out of hand.”
Sunwoo just looked at her silently for few seconds trying to think of words to say. In the end, he just took a sharp breath and sighed. He turned away trying not to look at her at the moment.
When, he finally gathered his thoughts, he scooted close to get his point across. He wanted her to know that he was serious, but she looked taken aback at his boldness but did not move away.
“Please, reconsider. We can work through it. We both were just angry then and did not think it through. Let’s not break up over this.”
Break up. The word meant that they were together but they never were. There was no one around for them to keep a facade.
“It’s not technically a breakup. It was all a hoax. You can dump the blame on me saying that I backed out last minute. I don’t care.”
“But why do we have to? I apologize again. You told me you feel nothing for Kyudong.”
“I did not try to back out because my feelings for him or anything. It was because of your lack of reaction. Even though it was fake, you should have questioned us.”
“Why?”
“Your indifference showed all that the relationship was fake. It’s obvious you care about the marriage and your family. But we can’t live with a lie forever.”
“You know I’m not good at being expressive. I was wrong then. SeolChan teased about me about finally going through the anger that he went through when I confessed to Seyi out of the blue.”
What did he mean by that? How are both the situations the same? In that scenario, both of them liked Seyi. She had to clarify the meaning of his words.
“How is that the same? SeolChan liked her. He getting upset with you was understandable. You did not care, so it’s not the sane.” She tried to reason but her heart speed with intensity. Her eyed were trying to analyze his every movement and expression.
“I did. I mean, I do. I just don’t know to be immature like you said. Don’t do what I mean. Don’t say what I mean.”
Thump. Thump. Thump.
“Say it clearly, so that I understand. Don’t speak in codes.”
“I am going to say everything that’s on my mind truthfully. So believe my every word. I did not like seeing you with another guy. When you told me that he confessed to you, I lost it. You told that you wanted to back out and I assumed it was for him. It shattered me.”
“Why?”
“Because, I was scared that you would really leave me. I fought so hard against myself and realized it could be because…..may be…that I liked you. ”
“What are you saying? What about Seyi?”
“I won’t lie by telling that I’m definitely over her. The feelings have faded but only the bitterness is what is still lingering. I swear, I mean it when I’m saying I have feelings for you.”
Nana’s heart was beating rigorously against her chest. Her mind was still processing his word and she swallowed hard.
“It’s not because of my family or marriage just to coax you. I really mean it. Don’t think that I’m lying to you just to fool you.”
“How can you be so sure?”
“I know a lot of things that I have done to make me sure. I had thought about making our relationship real gradually and slowly when we were both sure about it. But now I am sure about my feelings and I want to give us a try.”
“By us you mean?”
“Try being with me. Date me.”
“What about the marriage?”
“We’ll go through with it. My family really needs it. I request you to think again.”
“You are saying two different things.”
“I mean. Let things go as they were going. But on our end, we will be like normal young teens dating. That means we are giving the marriage a chance. But if you still feel like you don’t want to be with me. I will respect your wishes and we can get an annulment.”
“Are you serious?”
“Yes. Now it’s all up to you.”
She could not believe it was happening to her. Her love told her that he likes her and wants to be with her.
He tried not looking at her, waiting eagerly for her answer. She had several thoughts going about her mind.
She blushed hard at his confession playing over and over in her mind. Fate was now giving her an opportunity and she was ready to grab it by both hands.
“Let’s do it. Whatever you said.”
His frown turned upside down in an instant. He confirmed with her several times about her answer before rejoicing inwardly. Now, they were officially dating.
The young couple was now smiling to themselves, avoiding eye contact with each other.
Sunwoo knew that since she agreed, she might have some feelings for him as well. He wasn’t too sure about it, but it was okay for now. They could slowly and gradually develop their feelings. All he knew that he finally had a chance at love.
“So when you told that you have things that made you sure of your feelings, what were they?”
She asked blushing. Since they already dug out so many secrets, might as well dig deeper.
“Well, many things- Getting into fights, following you around. I did not have to agree with my parents but I did. It was okay for me. I even snuck out into school early, to break my seat only so that I could sit next to you and talk to you.”
“You did what?”
“Nothing. Just forget it.” He tried to quickly drop the embarrassing subject.
“You know, I wanted to talk to the most that day. I don’t have any one to talk to about such things. Ask you what to do.” She confessed.
“About what?”
“Kyudong. I wanted share it and ask for advice on what to do.”
Sunwoo felt guilty and tried to avert the matter by teasing her.
“It must be nice. Having two guys confess to you in a week. You are quite popular, Kim Nana.”
Nana gave him a playful swat on his arm before breaking out into a smile.
Sunwoo tried to be bold and intertwined his fingers with hers. Nana quickly stiffened as she felt him scooting closer towards her and he finally leaned in. Before he could go any further, she quickly turned her face causing Sunwoo to come in contact with the side of her face.
Nana blushed even harder and looked at the boy who moved away giving her a shy smile.
She needed time and he would give it to her.
“Just clear out with Kyudong soon. I will be there with you if you want.”
He suggested before getting up and pulling her along with him. He dropped her home and bid her farewell.
At home, she remembered the English sonnets that they were learning today which read as:
“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.”
-Pablo Neruda
Such selfless and intimate love was difficult to achieve, but she decided not to give up. He liked her back and some-day learns to love her as well and her love would become even deeper and stronger.
You Chose Me Chapter 5 [Monstar fanfic]
5.Confessions
It was another long weekend, when Nana decided to take a walk to the park. Admiring the serene surrounding, she realized that it was the same place, where she and Sunwoo had spent a long time sitting next to each other in heartfelt silence. They needed a breather after all the drama that happened just in a span of two days.
She never saw it coming. Just a few weeks ago, she had concluded that she had to move on. Despite everything that happened between them, Sunwoo had made it clear to her that she did not hold a chance against Seyi. Though, he did not say in words, his actions were enough to do the trick.
She had finally started to escape from his clutches, when she was yet again dragged under his spell. First, he ignored her to days on end. Then, out the blue he wanted to talk to her and made countless attempts to do so. She would be lying if she said that it did not spark a hope in her. She began to hope that their kiss, actually meant something rather than just being a mistake.He did not take long to pop her bubble.
When he first asked her to marry him, she thought it was some sort of cruel joke that he wanted to play on her. She finally realized that he was serious about it. That made her so sure he had been bitten by some crazy dog. Once he began explaining, everything fell into place. Why he asked her of all people; she was still not sure. The fact that her name just slipped out, hurt her even more. No valid reason.
The same evening, she called him to give her answer. It was a definite no till the end. But the moment he appeared, her mind and heart betrayed her. She started having second thoughts. A definite no turned to an unsure yes, but it was still affirmative. She was still uncertain about her answer, but she couldn’t help it.The deed was already done.
She was uncertain of her feelings for Sunwoo anymore. He just seemed to be different from the guy that he used to be. He has become rash, impulsive and somewhat immature. The old Sunwoo would think twice before even moving his finger. He was calm and level headed, yet cold and difficult to approach. Now,he just goes back and forth, confusing her.
He was impulsive when he kissed her in front of the entire school. He even asked her to marry him, for no convincible reason. At the same time, he handled her father and his parents with such ease and poise.All through the meetings of the two families, he was unflustered and composed. Despite the awkwardness at school, he had his act together. She had to admire him for that.
Why did she agree to marry him? She still does not know. Maybe, it was her lingering feelings for him. A part of it was also because, she wanted to escape from her father’s shadow. Being someone’s wife was better than the tittle of a mobster’s daughter. The fact that the man she liked offered her a hand to escape from her hell hole, was probably the main cause.
She quickly put her thoughts aside because she needed a few moments to herself. The constant nagging, questioning and pleads to rethink her decision was taking a toll on her. Her mother seemed less apprehensive after meeting his family, a few days back. That did not mean that they would stop worrying about her.
On the other hand, Sunwoo’s family seemed more accommodating than ever. They accepted her circumstances and treated her well, just for the sake of their son. They decided to keep the whole affair simple and amongst close relatives and friends only. The wedding would happen in about two week. Too soon to even wrap your head around the idea. So she decided to tackle one thing at a time. The consequences would be dealt with later.
She sat on a bench, stretching her feet and leaning on the back rest. Her heart was exhausted from all the turmoil of emotions she was going through. Though the boy that she cares was the prime reason for her state, she still craved for a warm embrace from him assuring her that everything would turn out just fine.
Her phone buzzed bringing her out of her reverie.
‘Hey, where are you?’
-Jung Sunwoo
She wondered as to why he wanted to know her whereabouts.
‘Why?’
‘Just tell me.Are you at home?’
‘No.’
‘Studio?’
‘No.’
‘Where are you then?’
‘Just out for a little walk.’
‘Ok. Talk to you later.’
That was weird. If he was so busy then, why bother asking texting her. She wondered if he was spying on her. Was he hiding somewhere and testing her? Nana quickly scanned her surrounding but he was nowhere in sight. She let out a small laugh at her silliness. She was kind of hoping that he would be there. Once again, she was distracted by the buzzing of her phone.
‘Nana, can we met? I need to tell you something important.’
Nana was surprised at the text but she agreed to meet the said person at a nearby cafe, later in the evening. She suddenly had a sinking feeling in her stomach.
Sunwoo hadn’t really planned out his day. Ideally, he had to be in his room studying. But he ended up below the building of his Nana’s work studio.His home was no longer his sanctuary. Everyone was involved with the impending wedding preparations. It made him jittery. He decided that leaving home was the best option at the moment. He hoped that he could study at Nana’s studio just like they did before on their coupon date.
If she were at her studio, he could just join her. Or else if she were at home, they would come together or at least gotten her keys. He knew that she would understand. But either way, she was busy someplace else.
He would be lying, if he said that it did not bother him. He wanted to pester her for more details but at the very moment, he chickened out. It took a lot of effort to get her to talk to him again. He couldn’t risk it.
He headed to the library hoping to kill time . Calling Nana in the evening to meet up would be better. The trip to library brought back memories when he followed Nana as he secretly listened to her sing. It was the same path.
She has a strong voice. The slight huskiness in her tone manages to captivate those around her. She doesn’t even realize how her songs move people. That is one of the things he liked about her. It made her different and genuine. Initially, he did not even ponder about it, but lately he realized he liked her as a person.
He quickly texted her to meet up the evening before heading to the library.
The evening was getting darker, when Sunwoo headed out of the library. He checked his phone but he saw no reply from Nana. Walking up to her neighborhood and waiting for her seemed like a better option. If she would eventually not reply, he could call and meet her outside her place.
He stopped by a nearby cafe, to grab a cup of coffee. The sight that greeted him did not sit well with him at all. There was Nana standing with KyuDong hugging her. It seemed more than a friendly hug, because it lasted for quite a while. Why was she not pushing him away? She had easily punched SeolChan on the face when he did that.
“Nana!”
He called out to them rather louder than intended. KyuDong broke apart from her in flash.Both of them seemed taken aback to see him. He walked casually to them, trying to pretend that he was not the least bit bothered.
“Nana, I texted you to meet up but you did not reply.Good that I found you here. We needed to discuss about the wedding preparations.”
He stressed on the wedding part while greeting KyuDong half heartedly. Nana seemed to be void of any emotion on her face and just nodded. KyuDong flustered like was he was guilty and avoiding his gaze. It made Sunwoo all the more suspicious, but he did not let it faze him.
“I should leave now. Nana, thank you for meeting me. I will see you guys in school.”
He urgently bid farewell from them and brisk paced away from them. Sunwoo simply guided Nana into the cafe and seated her, while he went to place their order. They just sat across each other in complete silence, neither of them touching their cake. Sunwoo ignored it and started on his desert without sneaking a single glance at her, while she stared at him.
“Won’t you eat your cake?”
“No, I’m not hungry.”
Without much as a single conversion, they were heading on their way back to her home. Nana was getting more upset by each second.Why was he not asking her anything? He definitely saw them, but still did not ask her. Did he really not care about her being with other guys? Even if it were to reprimand her about them getting caught in their lie. He seemed so inquisitive about her earlier.
“Are you not going to ask me anything at all?”
“About what?”
She seemed to be on the verge of tears. He guessed that she just embarrassed at getting caught. He should be the one getting angry rather than her.
“Do I need to spell it out for you?”
“There was nothing to ask. You were just with one of our friends.”
He tried to convince himself. There was nothing wrong in hugging your friends. Even if it was, he had no place to ask her that. It was her life.
“He confessed to me. He told me that he liked me and wanted to confess before the wedding.”
She blurted out. The words pierced through his heart and he started feeling insecure all of a sudden. His dreaded thoughts turned to reality in a second. He wanted to avoid this conversation at all costs. Just when everything began to fall into place, another setback occurred. He wanted to lash out. He wanted to say so many things to her, but nothing formed to words. Rather than the intended words, he ended up asking rudely.
“So now that he confessed, you want to back out from the wedding. Is that what you want?”
Nana seemed aback taken by his words.She tried to compose herself the best she could. She wanted to discuss her dilemma with him. She wanted to clear any misunderstandings that he would have had. Apparently, he was least bothered by it and had no misunderstandings whatsoever. He did not care about her at all. Only the wedding was what mattered the most.
“Maybe I do. I think that I need to reconsider all of this. Just go home.”
Nana left him alone by the road and he also did not try following her. He was also upset as hell and he did not understand why. He needed time to rethink everything too and decided to head back home.
Nana berated herself for being so over dramatic. Why did she have to blurt out everything when he did not even ask about it? Her heart squeezed at the fact that she means so little to him. He wasn’t even fazed to see his so called fiance /Girlfriend hugging another guy. She wanted to talk to him openly about it.
Being confessed is not something that happens often to her.Not until now that is.She is not like Seyi who has guys falling for her sweet charm. She was rather ignored by all of her classmates. Let alone have any admirers.
She felt so insulted by him. Him not care at all, made her upset. He manages to hurt her all the time. Maybe, she should consider Kyudong after all. No, she could not. She already declined him. The guy just wanted to get it out of his chest and move on.The hug was just a farewell or goodbye for him. But he did hugged her so suddenly that she did not know what to do. Before, she would punch any guy before he did that.
No sooner that he gathered her thoughts in seconds, than Sunwoo called out to her. She was caught off guard and rendered speechless. She was overwhelmed to form any sane reaction. Sunwoo’s silence made it even worse for her because it hurt her.
She knew this whole thing was bad idea from the beginning. Now, she definitely wanted to back out before things got worse and she was even more hurt. Being married to this cold guy, whom she had feelings for without being reciprocated was something that she could never handle. But all this confirmed one thing for her. She did not like him.She loved him.
She cried her heart out that night.
Sunwoo could not comprehend the fact that KyuDong confessed to Nana and he was so affected by it. The guy who seemed so timid had the guts to confess to a tough girl like her and even hug her. The said girl was even almost engaged to another friend of his. He was furious at him and also at Nana. Why did she have to confess rather than let it slide? She may really wanted to get away from him. Maybe she liked KyuDong as well. The image of them hugging keeps flashing in his mind.
He wanted to spend the day with her but it turned out a blunder. There was nothing to look forward to now.What if she really backed out? Thousands of thoughts swarmed his head creating chaos. Now, he understands how SeolChan must have felt when he confessed to Seyi. Though he was already getting Seyi, his emotions were still in turmoil.Rather than denying it, it was better to accept it. His anger and hurt towards Nana definitely meant something.
He may like his fiance after all . Just maybe.
You Chose Me Chapter 4 [Monstar fanfic]
4.Meetings
Sunwoo had a pleasant sleep that night, compared to the previous nights; without unnecessarily tossing and turning around while thinking of ways to deal with Nana. A cute smile adorned his handsome features, as he dwelled in deep slumber dreaming about things, only he would know. Poor boy seemed to forget that he still had bigger problems to deal with.
The mood at breakfast was once again pleasant and calm, without the tense atmosphere that had been looming over for days. His parents were busy preparing for the arrival of his grandmother, all that would be required for a recovering patient.
They would later meet his principal when they would still be in class; so he would have to meet the principal, only if called upon.
Amidst everything, his mother did not forget to remind him about bringing his girlfriend home. She gave him a teasing smile, not missing the soft blush on her son’s cheeks as he nodded.
He sent a quick message to Nana asking her whereabouts so that they could leave for school together. However, Nana refused saying that they would see each other directly at school.
Sunwoo insisted on meeting before school, so that they could set their stories straight. They had yet to discuss about how they would deal with their fellow students and friends.
Nana was patiently waiting for him afar from the school gate, away from prying eyes. He would not have noticed her, if she had not specified about her location. Sunwoo was sure Nana knew every nook and cranny of the school, where a person could remain unnoticed.
“Hey, Nana.” He greeted her.
When she turned to face him, the view that greeted him left a sour taste in his mouth. She looked tired and pale, unlike him who had a good nights’ sleep.
He reached out his hand to touch her forehead. But his touch caused her to flinch backwards, as if his touch would harm her. He dropped his hand to his side, with a rush of sadness and disappointment at her unexpected reaction.
“Are you alright? Are you sick or hurt?” He asked cautiously while reading her face.
She looked surprised at first but resorted back to her usual poker face with a crisp reply.
“Nothing, I’m fine.”
Little did he know that the poor girl cried herself to sleep because of him.She would never admit it to him, that he affected her in any way possible. Meeting his family today, did not fail to pile up on her stress.
“Why did you call me?”
“Ah, that was because… it’s nothing really special. It’s just that we need to decide what we will tell the others about our situation, what details to let them know and what not to let them know.”
“So what are the details we let them know?” Nana asked with genuine curiosity.
“That we are getting married because of family reasons, no need for details. They don’t need to know about my grandmother or my dad’s business. Let’s not get color bar members involved. Just keep mum on other questions so we don’t go astray from our story.” He spelled out each word clearly to get his point across.
Nana seemed amused at his speech and nodded at him to go on.
“If they ask about anything else, just tell them that we have been dating for some time now and that the marriage is from mutual consent.”
“So you want me to tell a lie?” She asked with hint of despair wondering how he could say those things in such a casual manner whereas she was getting affected by it.
“Not a lie, consider it a half truth. Don’t dwell too much into it.”
She nodded and it remained silent for a while till she questioned, “How long?”
“Hmm?” He asked confused.
“How long have been…..you know……dating? We need to match our stories, don’t we?”
“Ah! I don’t know. Let’s say…….four weeks?”
“Ok, what else?”
“What more?”
“Who confessed? Who pursued whom? How did you confess?”
He just looked more confused, which caused her to let out a sigh.
“If you want me lie, it needs to be solid. I don’t want to look like a fool if we get caught. Forget the school; the elders will catch upon our lie if we don’t say it with accuracy. “She said with a sudden sassiness that he liked.
“You seem to know a lot about lying, Nana.”
He teased her with a smile causing her to squirm at his attention and sound of her name.
“Well, it’s something you learn along the way, when you want to skip school, goons and so on.”
“Okay, so you tell me then, what our love story is?” He asked as he met her intense gaze.
“You were the one who confessed and pursued me.”
“Why me?”
“It’s not going to me, is it?”
“Fine. I confessed. When?”
“Two weeks after all for one battle.”
“What else? How did it happen?” He asked curiously.
“We started hanging out through practice sessions… the private guitar lessons…..the hang out coupons. That way we started spending time with each other, learning more things about each other……getting to know each other better. You confided to me about your feelings for Seyi. When you got rejected, I tried to help you through it. We developed feelings which we never knew. After the battle, we dint have a reason for meeting each other……..You started to miss me……..You realized your feelings and couldn’t stay quiet. That’s when you came to me to confess and asked me out. I agreed…….We kept meeting in secret. Your parents mentioned marriage, that’s when you told them about me. Yesterday, you took me away to the roof to tell me about your parents wanting you to get married. That’s when you told me that you want to marry me, not anyone else……..because I’m that one you like. I agreed……. and now here we are.”
Silence filled in, Sunwoo realized that he had been gazing intently at her far too long. He slowly backed away, clearing his throat. Nana turned away from him, quickly wiping the tears before he saw it. How could she tell him? That was the way; she wished their story would be. These were her wishful dreams that kept her awake the whole night.
He looked at her back, and said, “Let’s go with your story. But let’s not make my confession so dramatic……nobody will believe it’s me. Anyways, about the…. kiss….let’s say that aftermath of the proposal led to it.”
“My story is good not dramatic. It makes you look good. Your little stunt from yesterday goes with it.”, she said leading both the teens to blush.
“Okay, I give in.”
“You know something else, Jung Sunwoo?”
“What?”
“You suck at proposals, Byeontae.”
The Nana-Sunwoo couple was still a hot buzz in the entire school. Rumors spread like hot fire, with more unreal added spiciness. It was more like they were two celebs caught in a dating scandal by paparazzi. Teachers and students alike stared at them as they entered the school. Nana wanted to enter school separately, but Sunwoo insisted on going together and getting it over with.
Her eyes were down casted the whole time as Sunwoo lead the way from the school gate to class. He made her wear his earphones so that the music would shut out the murmurs that would make her uncomfortable. They sat next to each other, same as the previous day.
Although just a day had passed, it felt like an eternity. Yesterday, they were former band mates who couldn’t even look each other in the eye and now they are a newly engaged couple sitting together, not able to meet their classmates in the eyes.
Despite the music that shut out the real world, Nana could guess what her classmates were whispering amongst each other. She was used to it. Rumors about beating people up, her gangster lover and her dark life was nothing she did not know about, but chose never to speak. They were untrue, so she cared less even though she was bothered by it.
But today was a different story, not only were they gossiping about her at her face but it was all true. And the perpetrator of her current ordeal seemed unfazed; he nonchalantly flipped through his notes, busy studying. More than admiring him, she was irritated at his calm demeanor and ended up pinching his arm. She looked away as he faced her with a questioning look; rubbing the stinging sensation away.
The Color Bar members were huddled in a corner trying to find out different ways to approach them, but couldn’t find the courage to do so.
Though she wanted to come alone, she was glad that he insisted on going together. She wouldn’t be able to go through it alone. For the first time, she understood how easier things were if you had someone to pull you through it. Even if it made things just a tad bit simpler.
Class continued as usual, teachers came in and left but did not fail to single out the couple with their eyes, even without words. The two were later called upon in the principal’s office, but were left with just a warning. Sunwoo’s parents managed to sort out the matter; but it was made clear that such behavior was not acceptable, whatever the circumstances.
“Daebak!! Nana and Sunwoo are getting married!”
Various speculations were drawn for the reason behind the sudden news. At the end of class, Sunwoo received a text from Seol Chan to meet at Ahjussi’s place as the whole gang wanted to have a long chat with him. Informing her, the two lead their way without a single word spoken between.
They were greeted with accusing looks directed at Sunwoo as they entered the basement. DoNam grabbed him by the caller; whereas Nana just walked past them and took a seat on empty bench. Sunwoo calmly eased his fingers from his collar asking him to calm down, assuring to answer all their questions.
“Are you two really getting married?” Seyi asked.
“Yes.”
Silence.
“What have you done to Nana that she has to marry you?” DoNam asked him in accusatory tone.
“It’s nothing like you idiots are thinking. Clear your dirty minds.” Nana cleared and warned them.
“Then, just because of a kiss…..you have to marry? This is the solution that adults come up with?” SeolChan asked boldly and stupidly.
“No, you idiot….but you sure have a wild imagination.”
He explained the situation to them about his granny and his parents request leaving out details like his father’s business situation, his and Nana’s agreement. He also added that the two had been dating for a while.
“You two were dating? And we did not know? How long?” Eunha asked.
“Four weeks to be specific.” He said as he gave a knowing look to Nana.
Everyone seemed skeptical at first and prodded Nana for confirmation. When her nod affirmed the news, they congratulated the couple.
Except for the girls, the boys looked more displeased and unsure. SeolChan called him out and asked him his true intentions.
“Why are you doing this? Don’t play with an innocent girl like Nana. Sort your stuff and leave her alone. Does she know about Seyi at all?”
“Firstly, I am not playing with Nana or anything; she knows all about Seyi. Secondly, Seyi has nothing to do me with me anymore or even this matter. Thirdly, you have no right to pry in our personal matter. But for the sake of our friends I gave an explanation, but nothing beyond this.”
He then asked Nana to get ready so that they could leave to meet his parents. Seyi and Eunha volunteered to help as the boys waited out for them. They continued to shoot glares and daggers at him.
Nana came out wearing a simple beige blouse with and flower printed skirt. The simplicity of her choice of clothes was quite contrary to her unique taste, but he couldn’t deny that she looked more delicate and ladylike.
They left for his house by car, but he couldn’t help but sneak a few glances at her along the ride.
“Though you do not seem like the Nana I know, you look pretty.” He said looking away from Nana who could only muster a flustered smile.
The nervous girl could not twiddle her fingers at the thoughts of meeting Sunwoo’s family.
Would they like her? What if they did not like her? What would they say about her family background?
Oh right! They already knew about it; Sunwoo already let them know. If they don’t like her, would they ask Sunwoo to marry someone else? No……she wouldn’t be able to take it.
Her thoughts were still jumbled, when their car finally stopped at their destination. Nana simply observed his house from the outside, she never actually entered before. Her feet refused to move past the gate, despite him calling out to her; so he simply held her hand and guided her in.
“Don’t worry. I’m here with you.” He whispered to her, squeezing her palm in his for reassurance.
Despite her concerns, his parents greeted her warmly, his mother specifically. His mother had such a calm and kind appearance with simple elegance in her manners. Whereas his father seemed more silent but still conversed well. He was a handsome and calm well-aged man, so she now knew from where Sunwoo got his looks and personality from.
They continued a simple conversation with her while Sunwoo was sent in to change into a better attire; while she and his parents waited for his grandmother to come down. They asked her about her likes, dislikes, and school and also apologized for their son’s rash actions in school premises. They were concerned about her approval on the marriage and whether her family would also approve of it. She quietly replied in short and crisp answers, getting nervous for not having him around.
Just then, Sunwoo came into the room with his grandmother, who asked Nana to join them for dinner. Dinner went much smoother, as it was more peaceful with Sunwoo answering most of the questions. His granny seemed quite doting on her only grandchild, and she seemed to like Nana as well.
Later, his grandmother asked to speak to the girl privately in another room.
“Nana, dear. Don’t seem so nervous. I just wanted to speak to you without Sunwoo interrupting.”
“So, how long have known Sunwoo?”
“I have just known him as the class president, but we got to know each other just a few months ago after we joined the same band.”
“Ah, so you two are in the same band. Sunwoo told me about you that you have an amazing voice. His parents did not approve of him joining this band. But he did well…… he found you, didn’t he?” Nana just smiled in response.
“When Sunwoo told us about your family, we were really worried. To be honest, we were really against it. But he seemed quite adamant about you.” With every word from the elder, her fears were slowly turning into reality.
“Don’t worry my child, as Sunwoo said it’s not your fault. The actions of elders, many a times affect our children. Be it your family or ours. Sunwoo seems to like you a lot. I have never seen him so adamant for something before.” Her words continued to surprise the young girl.
“Your parents still don’t know about this right?”
“No!”
“Nana, are you sure that you want to marry my Sunwoo?” She could only hesitantly nod in response.
“Then let me ask you, do you really like him?”
The young girl’s eyes widened in surprise.
Sunwoo nervously paced behind the closed doors as Nana and his grandmother conversed. He really wanted to know what was going on, he hoped Nana would be fine and their charade was not caught. He took a sigh of relief, when the door opened to reveal two smiling women. Everything seemed to sail smoothly. His thoughts were confirmed when his family approved of her.
After the couple had left home, his parents asked his grandmother about her thoughts towards Nana. She only smiled and said, “The girl seems rough around the edges, but she likes our boy a lot. Much more than Sunwoo likes her. I think she may even be in love with him. ”
He decided to walk her home as it was late, just like the night before. Nana seemed more relaxed and happier than before. When he asked her about what his granny told her, she just muttered that it was their secret and would not tell him. This caused Sunwoo to smile and rubbed her head affectionately making her blush.
But their sweet moment was short lived as a black car stopped and men in black-suits approached them. Nana tried to resist but Sunwoo stopped the men from touching her.
“Just get in the car Nana. I anyways needed to talk to your father. Let’s go, I will come with you.”
They were asked to wait for her father but Nana still protested and asked him to leave. Sunwoo was delivered a few punches here and there, but she stopped them by throwing her body in front of him, as a shield.
When, her father arrived, the girl just vented her anger at her father accusing of making her life hell, but Sunwoo kept his calm and asked her to let him talk.
“How dare you try to play with my daughter?” Her father demanded angrily, clenching his fists.
Apparently, the rumors about them at school had reached her father’s ears.
“No sir, I don’t have any ill intentions with you daughter. But I admit yesterday’s incident was my own fault. I am sorry about it. But I came here today to tell you that I wish to marry her.”
He explained about the situation and why he wishes to marry her. He even told him about the meeting with his family, and that he was planning to ask his permission as well, but it seemed to happen sooner than expected.
“How did you even consider that I would let my daughter marry you? You are just using her, why would I trust my young daughter to a guy who can’t even take care of her and who is so rash.”
“We like each other and I promise, me and my family will take care of her.”
“When did this begin?”
“For the past few months, we started hanging out through practice sessions… the private guitar lessons. That way we started spending time with each other, learning more things about each other……getting to know each other better. Though I initially had feelings for another girl, I confided to her about my feelings. When I got rejected, she tried to help me through it. We developed feelings which we never knew. After the battle, we dint have a reason for meeting each other and I began to miss her……..I realized my feelings and couldn’t stay quiet. I ended up confessing and asked her out and she agreed. We kept meeting in secret. My parents mentioned marriage, so I told them about our relationship. Yesterday on the roof, I told her that I want to marry her, not anyone else……..because she is the one I like. And your daughter agreed.”
He bragged on with a straight face, which earned him a slap.
“I would still never agree. She was already crying over a guy before, and as a father I still could not do anything for her. Why would I let you hurt her?”
“Have you ever tried asking Nana what she wants? She hates it when your men drag her into a car, but you still hurt her.”, Sunwoo retorted. But her father still did not budge.
“What if I wanted to marry him, would you let me?” Nana who was quiet during the entire conversation, spoke up.
“You talk about keeping me safe. But I have been in danger because of you. When your rival gang’s men were chasing me, he was the one who was there to save me. Not you. I could have been kidnapped or killed. But I am here because of him, so you should be thankful to him.”
Her father backed away in horror at the sudden disclosure which even had Sunwoo surprised.
It was a long day for the couple, who had to face a lot in the past two days. They were seated on a bench in a nearby park, trying to have peace of mind at the end of the day. It was quite late, but neither of them wanted to go home and sat quietly enjoying the silent night view.
The conversation with her father stretched quite long.He was shocked at the revelations of the day when Nana was attacked. He was still a father who loved his daughter despite his profession. He was remorseful at how his life took a toll on his daughter. In the end, he conceded for the sake of his daughter and agreed to meet Sunwoo’s family.
“Are you okay? Does your body hurt? You took quite a few hits.”
“I’m fine. Don’t worry. I anticipated much worse.”
“Yeah right.” She mocked him.
“Thanks for backing me up against your father.”
“I had too. Otherwise, he would never agree. I have to admit Byeontae; you have courage when you narrated the story with such a straight face. To say a lie, in front of a gangster’s face asking for his daughter’s hand. You are the first person who stood up against him without a single flinch.”
“Word by word. Just like you taught me. I always asked you to stop calling me that. Just call me by my name for once.”
“Why should I?”
“Well, the reasons seem obvious to me now. I would be weird if you keep calling me that in front of others.”
“Whatever.”
Sunwoo leaned back against the bench, covering his eyes with arm. He felt so exhausted that he had no energy left for his mind to think or body to move.
“You look a lot like your father.” He turned towards her to find that she was looking directly at him.
“Yeah, I have heard that a lot.” He smiled at her as he replied.
“My sister looked a lot like my mother though.”
“You have a sister?” She asked puzzled.
“Yes, I had. But she died at a young age of leukemia.”
“Oh.” She could only muster such a response.
They sat in silence once again, but he broke it by asking, “That day when you were being attacked, it was another gang?”
“Yes.”
“Were they trying to kidnap you?”
“Yes.”
“Did they hit you?”
“Yes. One of them did. But I escaped before it got worse and then you saved me.”
His heart clenched at the thought of her getting beaten up. His clenched his fists and contemplated for a while.
“Next time, Nana. The next time it happens, just call me. Please.” He begged but he got no response from her.
“Can I ask you a favor?”
“What is it?”
“Can you quit smoking? I am saying it because it’s bad for you.”
Nana looked surprised but agreed at his request. She suddenly got up from her seat and stretched a hand out to him.
“It’s getting late. Drop me home.”
Sunwoo complied with her request and grabbed her hand, letting her pull him up from the seat. His body was heavy but she still managed to pull him. He walked her just like the night before, but this time without letting go of her hand.
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